All becuz im short

ahh blogging mode today...
So many blogs i have these days, its hard to update them all!

Nah im not short, this line is from the expendables, which i watched yesterday. Haha it was good enuff 4 me ya. N there is this part where J et li talks abt how he need to work harder than the rest, do more etc etc .... all becuz he is short.

LOL. Maybe im feeling like that now, having to "work" so hard. zzzzzz

Approximately 5 years ago at this time,

- i was playing dota. N err, i think im still playing dota. LOL <-- on my twitter lol

hahaha that was so random. Saw that off melia news feed and decided that its a fun exercise (to come up with my own version)! so i just look back at my archives and to my "horror"/pleasant surprise... i was still playing dota!!! LOL time flies but some things nv change! at least the things u choose not to. hahaha :)

yea i was actually thinking about other things but upon scanning my blog i came across that... haa

Dun worry i have many other examples, like... heh heh

Approximately 5 years ago at this time,

- i was in poly, training for wss mechatronics '06, to try to smoke my way into uni.

which i did. congratulations. Hmmm this was the original title actually. Yea I did it. Good for me i guess. Yea good for me, thats all. wad else can i say really. sadly. there's nothing more to it. I tried. n I succeeded. thats all. nobody really cares. u better survive ur last yr n graduate in one piece i tell u.

- i was playing Wo W, thinking of quitting.

which i did. congratulations. nah i nv like that game i tell u. After lv 60 its kinda fail. As a game its good. But the whole idea of getting good gear, then the new patch comes out, your good gear gets obsolete and the whole cycle repeat itself is just stupid. Then y even bother? just wait 4 the nxt patch lah. i noe u nid good gear to stay on top. But u c... its totally pointless considering the amt of effort u nid. lol n dun even get me to go into raiding. The hardest part of raiding is actually getting the people, that is, getting 40 people to come online at the same time (its like planning a project meeting for 40 people, i think 5 will kill alr lol). AND getting them to commit the nxt good 5 hrs playing (rmb there is alot of organisation and walking/dying/ressing/toilet break/etc. etc). N all that just to get gear that u know will be obsolete soon. Nah i'd rather keep my weekends free. of cuz they r hardcore people, but im not one of them. The 5 man r really fun tho, but again u r "tied" to the group for the certain time. which makes it very hard when u want to play 4 short amounts of time. I cant believe i type so much abt game. lol. Come to think of it, i dun really game much now. Too bz going out/dota/doing nothing to commit to a mmo. not like i dun like gaming, but i have grown too lazy to game. Reached a higher lv alr haha.

- i just joined video not long ago, just learnt cam 5, and was so looking forward to serving when its my turn.

which i still am =) heh ya i still am haha, maybe the look forward part decrease abit, nv really get to do much cam 5 much these days, dun really hang the "just joined" tag ard anymore, but im still in video. yup haha im still in video. I think i commemorated my 5 years in video recently, so this is a repeat post. Guess i will just keep it short here. One thing to say tho, is that may i be constantly reminded of Who and Why im serving, instead of just focusing on the serving itself.

- I was single and emo.

which i still am!! lolz just kidding. hahahahahahaha :P

Haha a fun exercise indeed. Seems like i have advanced much, achieved my goals, n got wad i want in life. Indestructible eh? Looking life at my life 5 years ago feels like the same to me. lol. But i know its not. I know the times have changed. They always have ...

And now i wonder wad the next "5 years ago post" would bring, with me at 29, almost reaching that dreaded 30. Oo seems like many things... maybe life would still be the same?? similar at least? Or would i not be able to recognize myself alr? i dunno. haha.

[wall of text assault!]

Nv knew wad 2 do, wish some1 will juz tell me, but den it nv happens.I can only do wad little i noe, but nv knowing if tats wad i shld do.

hahaha thats quite a long title!! lol i wanted to tweet this initially, but i decided not to since its too 'emo' alr, better not. Enuff emo people ard, not point adding 1 more to the count lol.

Yup such a long title wonder wad it means.... hmmmmmm

Thats just it. I never knew wad to do in life. Nv knew how to go abt doing things. I'm basically totally lost. At times i may look like i noe, but thats just me pretending, i really do not noe i just act like i do cuz i have no choice. I c problems n situations ard me, but i nv knew wad to do. Thats just it, i just look. I nv know, i nv do, n i guess i nv will. Many times i wish i'd rather not c, i'd rather not know, but thats just wishful thinking.

I wish people will just tell me. Like how cook books instruct u step by step. If only life is so simple, if u want smthing, u just follow a certain set of instructions and thats it. If people nid ur help, they just list down their own set of instructions n thats it.

But no, apparently u have to guess. And the only thing i noe is wad i can do, which i dunno if its wad is required. Sometimes i cant do wad is required. Sometimes i can but i didnt do so. How am i suppose to noe if im not told? How am i supposed to read all the signs and make all the assumptions? wad if i make the wrong assumptions? When am i supposed to come in? What if its too early? what if its too late? what if im not supposed to do anything at all? how do i noe? how can i ever noe really if im not told? how? how? what consequences will my actions bring abt? good? bad? spoilt the course of history? saved some1's life? Now how do i noe what to do??? hoooowwww?

So i just look to myself, trying to do the little best i could. Hoping that its enough, but i nv know. I. just. hope. its. enough. Keep on hoping. Nothing more.

I know. yes i know. I just do not know how. I just do not know wad.

Haha i wish i won't think so much, that i can just live life for e moment, do wadeva i like, do wadeva i want, at wadeva time i want, with whoever that is ard. If only it can be made so simple, if only :)

[dunnoe say dunnoe]

bump bump

lol im at the waiting to slp state ... pause a bit dunno wad to do, so spam my blog.

ya i dunno shld i blog? write about the same things again??? hmm guess thats kinda boring. So i will leave it at that...

nah i changed my mind. I will blog. ok blog abt friends. What abt friends? Nah recently just got thinking/reflecting on the friends i have. It just. seemed. impossible. Each has their own story lol its really interesting. I guess life's journey just plays itself out, i'm really blessed in such a way. Just to c how each one of them has grown throughout the years, the changes that we undergo, the similarities that we share, goes beyond words. lol.

Maybe thats wad u get when u live in the same area ur whole life and attend the same church. But i must say i have no regrets in this area. If i get the chance to go back in time and relive my life, i would change nothing, still make the same friends, and wanna meet/befriend them the same way again :):):)

[Blessed]

english phaill

I do not know what to do
I only do what little i could
not knowing if its ever enough
just happy to know i did what i should ...

Yea im turning emo!!!
nah im not, too much time sitting at home stoning. I'm the king of stoning after all.

How can i be emo, its holidays now! smiley spam!!111!!!!1!1!!! :):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)

[okok]

Its a lie

I'm annoyed. MOE has been lying to us all these years. What nonsense talk about diversified education, alternative paths blah blah blah...

haiz it all started when i met my sec sch classmate today. Hmm he asked me if i c any1 around and i had to think hard. I thought really hard, really really hard but then i realized, there is no1. Crap no1, fine only jon, but he was 2nd in class. I was 2nd in class too ... counting from behind that is... zzzzzzzzz

dumb system segregating people from birth. well they can say wadeva they want, but i just look around me n i know something is wrong ...

So...

1. PSLE is your first shot in life, think of it as the start point of building a char. If u screw up now, ur build is spoilt and should probably reroll. But unfortunately, life offers no rerolls so QQ.

2. Then u go up to sec sch. You get a second chance to amend whatever errors u have made to ur previous build. But rmb, its always much harder to modify than to reroll. So its gonna be really uphill n u gotta work alot harder.

3. Finally comes the stage where the filtering really begins. Good if u enter jc, just don't screw up and ur chances r good. But if u get into poly, ha then u better hope u r either:
(a) a genius
(b) in engineering

Lastly, if u get into ITE, gg. Well u can still come back, but u probably nid +10 gears or something.

4. Congrats if u made it to local u, u r now 1 tier above the rest. If u r a genius, than good 4 u. If u r in engineering, have fun competing against our very own FT. Good luck. You need it.
If u did not get into one of the local uni, then happy hunting. You are now playing on 'hard' mode. gg.

Not saying that its really that bad, my only gripe is that it all starts too early, and there r too many tiers where u could fail. And getting up is so difficult, its not even funny anymore :(

[/endrandomrant]

peace

As i grow older, as my circle of friends grow smaller, as people began to settle down, get bz with stuff etc etc, i can't help but notice one thing. There is more peace in my life now. Alot more. Alot, alot, alot more .... Maybe this is maturity, but one thing i noe, im a happier person now =)

[seems wrong that less friends = happier me. zzz i dunno really ...]

packed

Long day.. pool, spd drama, 3pm, rehearsal, f1 and world cup finals later. lol ok too much sports hahaha ...

+1 to drama produced by me. Really impressed by the standard put in despite having only 1 rehearsal. yea i got this phobia of standards dropping, haaa must have set the bar too high lolx

think thats all. For now i live life a day at a time, w/o a worry nor a care in this world, just doing what needs to be done at the time i am needed.

Simple really. Wish me luck. Goodbye =)

[.....]

Tired

heh ate alot today, yup another tech gathering, this time i'm e only leader. So guess wad? i did what i'm best at. Playing games! monopoly deal lolx ...
nah cannot discuss stuff with me only, so yup. running out of ideas alr. things always look good to me :)

So with life going on all ard me i will be slacking all over the land. Yea living the dream life many will be envious of, well if u cant die of boredom lol.

N player 3 will be coming my hse later today. N life goes on n on.

With me MIA from blogging 4 so long i owe an explanation i guess.

Lets just say ... nothing happened.

Robocup ended.
1 more year in uni left.
players still in auzzie.
still playing dota/luna.
everything else is good and going on =)

that is all.

[all i ask for is strength to continue ...]

Nothing

Oo its almost reaching 5 years since i last joined video. Five years is a relatively short time for many in church, but it seems like much has changed within these five years. Seems like it when u look back, i can barely rmb how it was then. I know many things have not, like i still mumble to myself, still cant write a proper birthday card, still cant walk properly, still gaming all day, almost the same hair style, still looking 5 -6 years younger than i was and all that. But i must say its a rather huge diff in terms of years, from late teens to almost mid 20's, yup now it seems kinda big.

But whatever it is, i will nv forget how i first joined tech. how i was a big noob and dunnoe anything, the oldest and the most junior lol. Committing all sorts of funny errors, trying to learn so many things to make up for "lost years", and how much i look forward to my turn to serve, how happy i feel just to be able to touch the cam, and how much i enjoy teaching others etc etc ......

I guess i just wanna say i really do love my ministry and my team. It has been a great pleasure to be part of this, n it always will be =)

[nah im not leaving anytime soon]

Not forgotten

Hi. I did not forget this blog. Just that nothing changed in my life. Nothing happened, so nothing to blog about. Goodbye :)

Oo flames ...

Recent case seems to show the that my church is being "flamed".

Disclaimer : The content below is meant solely as my own views. Viewer discretion is advised. It is not meant in any way to discredit, insult or cause any form of disharmony. Readers are welcome to leave at any time. Any from of "damage" (for the lack of a better word) is purely unintentional and i apologize in advance.

Ok now im safe from the law. Hopefully i am. Well its hard to define really. If i say something unintentionally that hurt you, can you charge me and send me to jail for slander ?? NOW WHERE IS THE BLOODY LOGIC GUYS!!! UNLESS THERE IS COLD HARD EVIDENCE THAT I AM INTENTIONALLLY TRYING TO INSULT YOU, HOW CAN YOU IN ANY WAY JUDGE MY INTENTIONS???!!! dumb or what people. This law is seriously flawed. It is determined by the "victim". The victim determines if he is insulted, and the aggressor, just bo bian lan lan have to accept his punishment, which again, is determined by the "victim", who actually calls himself the "victim" in the first place. You see the flaw here ?? zzzz

Back to the topic at hand. I always wonder why my pastor can get away with such comments, and will always think of what the congregation will think of when they hear something offensive like that. As much as i respect his bravery for speaking the truth, this may be too hard hitting on a society like singapore today. I dun think we are that open minded to accept people talking like that today. So it looks like i was wrong lol, you dun get away with talking like that in singapore, haiz talk about religious freedom.

To all who want to flame Christianity at this point, you can flame all you want. I dun care. I know that the Truth is perfect, and your flaming won't change anything, neither will it affect me. Therefore i won't charge u in anyway or declare myself a "victim".

Now that being said, i can't stand people. People who think they are always right, all good and act like they are like some god. Seriously, that is not that bad. Well its their problem anyway. But it gets bad when there are quite a number of such people. Then what happen ? You just get a bunch of idiots quarreling among themselves because they cant stand others that think that they are right. And now they feel hurt becuz ........... THEY MAY be WRONG!!! OHHHH NOESS HOW ISH THAT EVEN POSSIBLE !!!!!!!!!! BLEAHHH :(:(:(:(:(

And that apparently is too much! Ohh noes... i can't take it anymore !! he say i am wrong ! He cannot do this! He cannot do that ... y like this, y not like that. How come blah blah blah ... * sarcasm off.
Wake up lah, you want to argue your point, at least learn to listen first. And if you cannot agree with each other, then learn to SHUT UP! You noe why ??? becuz the other guy needs is not listening to you !! he is thinking just like YOU! (I will not go down to the level of scolding such people, no i will not. )

I have enuff of such pride in people man. People should really learn to examine themselves first, which i believe, is probably the hardest thing to do. Looking at your own flaws, never a pretty thing to do. Pointing fingers at others .... close one eye oso can.

We are the problem people ... we are the problem ...

Start work

yup i think its time i get my engine rolling. dunnoe y im so weak these days

Ohh well work work :)

Start School

Yup i started school officially yesterday (monday) like alot of people in singapore.
Daniel u attended classes today. Well done.

Ok thats it another sem, with some school and robocup. Till then, i will be 'playing' life, the mmo.

Presenting ...

Life: the mmo, What will you do ?

- Insanely hardcore! No pots / rerolls of any form!
- 2 random gender classes! It just starts! Skip the character selection phase!
- Endless possibilities! Do anything within the time frame. Study, Chat, Sleep or just try to figure out what it is about!
- Totally hidden and seemingly random stat sheet!
- Endless jobs . Create your own job! Or just serve as a peon for another player!
- Infinite classes ! Choose from the various classes depending on which city you are born in. Study in a school! Perform on the street! Advance to a doctor! Or just earn tons of cash!
- Expanded Talent System. No talent trees! Just attempt to learn anything you want! you may even discover hidden talents within your own avatar!
- Best community ever! Attempt to make friends. Manage unknown reputation bars!
- Endless responsibilities! Learn to build friendly relations! Don't get banned! Fulfill expectations! Manage your own guild/cca/club/company/etc.! Level up fast in school! Learn multiple instruments! All within 24 hours while managing multiple status bars like food and sleep! Just be superman. No losers allowed!

So are you game for insanely hard mode life ???

WARNING: REROLLING OF ANY FORM IS NOT ALLOWED IN THIS GAME! PLAY AT YOUR OWN RISK!

Disclaimer: GM's are not held liable for any damage/random deaths/failed rolls whatsoever. Whiners just whine all you want kthxbye


Pardon me. Im just really bored. Haiz life not like that tho hopefully =)

No hp zzz

Yes as u can tell from the title i lost my hp. Congrats daniel your phone lasted more than 1 year, quite a good achievement i would say ...

I must say, the feeling sux. Felt like i lost contact with the whole world lol. Yup its a strange feeling. Makes me wonder how i survived without any hp during my sec school days. Ohh well those were much simpler days, just gaming all day long (which is still what im doing lol, so.... ) Its juz more simple becuz i say so n lets juz leave it at that zzzzz

Looks like i will be looking for a new phone haha, gonna get a cheaper model, they should last longer lol ...