Nv knew wad 2 do, wish some1 will juz tell me, but den it nv happens.I can only do wad little i noe, but nv knowing if tats wad i shld do.

hahaha thats quite a long title!! lol i wanted to tweet this initially, but i decided not to since its too 'emo' alr, better not. Enuff emo people ard, not point adding 1 more to the count lol.

Yup such a long title wonder wad it means.... hmmmmmm

Thats just it. I never knew wad to do in life. Nv knew how to go abt doing things. I'm basically totally lost. At times i may look like i noe, but thats just me pretending, i really do not noe i just act like i do cuz i have no choice. I c problems n situations ard me, but i nv knew wad to do. Thats just it, i just look. I nv know, i nv do, n i guess i nv will. Many times i wish i'd rather not c, i'd rather not know, but thats just wishful thinking.

I wish people will just tell me. Like how cook books instruct u step by step. If only life is so simple, if u want smthing, u just follow a certain set of instructions and thats it. If people nid ur help, they just list down their own set of instructions n thats it.

But no, apparently u have to guess. And the only thing i noe is wad i can do, which i dunno if its wad is required. Sometimes i cant do wad is required. Sometimes i can but i didnt do so. How am i suppose to noe if im not told? How am i supposed to read all the signs and make all the assumptions? wad if i make the wrong assumptions? When am i supposed to come in? What if its too early? what if its too late? what if im not supposed to do anything at all? how do i noe? how can i ever noe really if im not told? how? how? what consequences will my actions bring abt? good? bad? spoilt the course of history? saved some1's life? Now how do i noe what to do??? hoooowwww?

So i just look to myself, trying to do the little best i could. Hoping that its enough, but i nv know. I. just. hope. its. enough. Keep on hoping. Nothing more.

I know. yes i know. I just do not know how. I just do not know wad.

Haha i wish i won't think so much, that i can just live life for e moment, do wadeva i like, do wadeva i want, at wadeva time i want, with whoever that is ard. If only it can be made so simple, if only :)

[dunnoe say dunnoe]